I’ve recently added new people in my life. I’ve branched out–taking on some endeavors that have put me into contact with people outside of my normal zone of relationships. This is, I think, a wonderful thing. I look forward to these new adventures. One thing has come up, though. I am diagnosed with schizophrenia. I’ve … Read moreWhat’s So Scary About Schizophrenia?
This is my blog. The rest of this website is my e-portfolio. I made it several years ago. You can browse around and see my various, mostly professional, accomplishments. At this point in my life, the portfolio part seems to be a relic of what I once was. Around 2008, I had my first psychotic … Read moreThis Portfolio Is a Relic Of What I Once Was
I just got off the phone with Social Security to report that I have stopped working. Some people in my life know that last month, April, I tried to work. And I really tried. I ended up in bed for a week and a half. Utterly exhausted, I wasn’t showering or brushing my teeth and … Read moreI Gave It My Best Shot
I’m going to share with you some things that have been kept quiet in my family for many years. It starts with my first memory. My first memory is of my dad beating my mom. It’s a sad memory and I’ve rarely told it to many people. I can still see my mom, in desperation, … Read moreTranscending My First Memory
Stigma–or, rather, discrimination–regarding mental illness is very common. Most people, alas, are unaware of the stereotypes and biases they hold in their head regarding mental illness. I have been an advocate against stigma and discrimination for several years. I’ve seen far too many instances of bias and discrimination. I couldn’t help but be an advocate. … Read moreOn Stigma
Recently, a representative from PsyCom.Net contacted me. If you haven’t heard of PsyCom, it’s a mental health website that was started by the renowned Ivan Goldberg, who developed a depression assessment. The representative from PsyNet thought my readers may be interested in checking out the site. So I encourage you to check it out!
I’ve become laid-back in my old age. I think I’ve also become more receptive to truth. In my quest to treat and think about schizophrenia, for example, I’ve turned in my old, piercing, rigorous mind and exchanged it for a more humble yet adventurous attitude. In the world of academia, we often find disparate conversations … Read moreDoes Finding Truth Require The Right Attitude?
I have a friend with mental illness who thinks that “the powers that be” intentionally shut certain people down by making them go insane. My friend thinks this when my friend is healthy. I want to think a bit about paranoia: its psychological causes. I have delved into the literature on paranoia and psychosis in … Read moreOn Paranoia: A Brief Reflection
Ask anyone who worked with me. I was 100% philosophy, 100% of the time. Effort and study creates genius. And I think I was one. A stable one, too. I was in the middle of my graduate thesis when madness creeped up on me. It began slowly, with things I could handle, like derealization. Then, … Read moreI Was A “Very Stable Genius.” Then I Developed Schizophrenia. Now, I’m An Unstable Genius.
Despite the fact that I have been exhausted for the past couple of weeks, I have, in general, been at peace with myself for several months now. You may not think that a person who fell from grace when they developed schizophrenia would be at peace. But I am. In fact, I’m more at peace … Read moreHow I Learned To Stop Worrying And Be At Peace
Long time readers may wonder about my sudden shift to writing about Christianity. I’ve converted. You may wonder why. So, I’ll tell you. About six months ago, I had a psychotic break. It was severe and there are possibly some readers here who witnessed parts of it. One evening during my psychosis, which lasts usually … Read moreCall Me C.S. Lewis: An Unlikely Convert
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In case you haven’t noticed, I live openly with schizophrenia. I came out publicly to all my friends and everyone in my life over a year ago. I was welcomed warmly. I thought I would lose friends, but I didn’t. That just goes to show what great friends I have. It’s always difficult meeting new … Read moreLiving Openly with Schizophrenia
There’s a good article here about the biases we all hold. I mean bias in the psychological sense. I learned a lot about bias as an undergraduate, and tried to root out as many as I could over the years. I can’t say that I’m perfect (who is?), but I think I’ve gotten better. I … Read moreOn Trusting Yourself, Knowing You Are Not Trustworthy
Everyone’s favorite neuroscientist, Neuroskeptic, comments on an interesting study which involves adoption and schizophrenia. I’ve mentioned that schizophrenia is currently considered a bio-based illness. And I am doing research on the biopsychosocial model, which states that schizophrenia can have multiple causes. But, of course, the biopsychosocial model is not in fashion right now. The research … Read moreNeuroskeptic on Swedish Study
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In this essay, I want to argue that we should refer to psychotic disorders as brain disorders, but that doing this doesn’t mean giving primacy to the biomedical view versus the biopsychosocial view. In keeping with some of my previous thoughts, let’s assume you get a broken leg. Furthermore, let’s assume that your broken leg … Read moreCalling Schizophrenia a Brain Disorder doesn’t Give Primacy to the Biomedical Model
Imagine that you get assaulted. You are kicked in the leg and it is broken. You go to the hospital. Your leg is x-rayed, and casted. You are given crutches, and asked if you want to press charges. That’s the way it normally goes, I assume, when you are assaulted and get a broken leg. … Read moreBroken Bones and Psychosis: Psychosocial Causes and Testability
The tendency has always been strong to believe that whatever has a name must be an entity or being, having an independent existence of its own. And if no entity answering to the name could be found, men did not for that reason suppose that none existed, but imagined that it was something peculiarly abstruse and … Read morePsychosocial Causes, and ‘The Real’
Introduction It seems like a cruel joke. People who are already in disadvantaged positions are, on top of that, vulnerable to brain disorders. Then, the society that produced the disadvantage (poverty, racism, sexism, etc.) stigmatizes the person for having an illness. I want to be transparent here. I am diagnosed with schizophrenia. I live openly … Read moreJustice at Both Ends: Preventing and Treating Psychotic Disorders through Social Justice
There’s an article here about how experts have decided that we need a large-scale, federally funded effort to end stigma of mental illness. It’s a good article. Check it out.
Here’s a good article about how creativity–and the arts–can help people with mental illness (and other disabilities).
I was doing some reading about how to know when you are ready to work when you have a mental illness. I came across this helpful article written by a person with mental illness who now counsels people who are looking to go back to work. Have a look.
There’s an article in the Atlantic about job hunting while having schizophrenia. According to the article, 85% of people with schizophrenia are unemployed, while 70% of them would like to work. This gets back to my previous post about how I am an asset. I explained that discrimination still occurs. Check out the article.
Although it’s illegal to discriminate against people with mental illness during hiring, it is well known that discrimination still occurs. People with disabilities are disproportionately living in poverty (partly because SSDI and SSI, if they are on that, provide you with just that—poverty) and cannot find work. Previously, I hid my mental illness from people, … Read moreWhy I Am an Asset, Even Though I Have Schizophrenia
I’ve mentioned previously that I’m participating in NAMIWalks. The walk in Orlando is on April 30th. It’s an awareness raising and fundraising event. Please consider donating to NAMI through my NAMI walker website. It is safe and secure. My page is here.
I write a lot about having schizophrenia, but I don’t often write about what it is and how it differs from other mental illnesses. Here’s a short article over at PsychCentral that discusses the difference between schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. About schizophrenia: Schizophrenia is less common than bipolar disorder and is usually first diagnosed in … Read moreAbout Schizophrenia
Right now, my doctor doesn’t want me working. I’m simply not ready, and I have to come to terms with the fact that I may never be ready. I have a very good friend who has bipolar disorder. He is also on disability, and we recently discussed working. He was feeling like he should work, … Read moreWhen Having a Disability Means You Can’t Work
What do you think of when you think of a person with schizophrenia? If you are like most people, you probably don’t think of technology savvy people, using said technology to better themselves. But according to this new survey, that’s exactly what the picture of schizophrenia is in America, currently. That puts me in line … Read moreBreaking Stereotypes
I read an article recently about the current method of treating mental illness, which was referred to as “the shotgun approach.” Basically, when you have a mental illness, they try different medications on you until they find one which works (hopefully). They do this even though the medications used to treat, say, bipolar or schizophrenia … Read moreHow We Treat Mental Illness
Eating better and exercising has really made me feel better. I didn’t know just how bad I felt until I started feeling better. It’s not just getting healthier, though. I have struggled with a little depression over the past, say, year or so. Even people close to me haven’t been able to tell. But I … Read moreSelf-Care
I found this really good article about depictions of people with mental illness in the media. The media is not a very good place to find accurate depictions these days.
I mentioned previously that every time I have been hospitalized (8 times), it has been against my will, and against the law. So you may wonder why I have been hospitalized. There have been times, no doubt, that I have acted oddly. I have had strange beliefs sometimes when I’ve had psychotic breaks. Apart from … Read moreWhy *Have* I Been in the Hospital?
I have a friend on Facebook who is very ill. She has a neurological disorder. She has to have caregivers take care of her. However, someone on Facebook reported her to the state, saying she needs help and is being neglected. So, the state came to her house to check things out. She is very … Read moreMeddlesome People
Because I am disabled by mental illness, and am on SSI, the topic of being impoverished while suffering a mental illness is a dear one to my heart. I will tell my story. I suffered a psychotic break in graduate school. I was one of the people who was trying to escape poverty. I worked … Read morePoor People and Mental Illness
I mentioned in a previous post that I have schizophrenia. I don’t talk about it too much these days. I am a person first, and having schizophrenia is just one thing about me. But I did want to mention that I am on a drug that seems to be working well for me right now. … Read moreUpdate
Longtime readers know that I have schizophrenia. It’s a horrible disease. I cannot really work because of it. My doctor doesn’t think I should be working full time right now. So I have taken to the arts; partly in order to heal, and partly because I have always loved the arts. I have recently written … Read moreSchizophrenia Has a Human Face
That’s according to this article, which discusses a survey that researchers conducted, asking people about their participation in the arts and their mental well being. I have for quite some time been participating in the arts, whether it’s creating poetry, painting, coloring, or listening to music. Take in some art today!