I was born, it is said, in Mount Pleasant, Texas. I lived there the first few years of my life before my family and I moved to Paris, Texas to witness. Mount Pleasant holds fond memories for me. I clearly recall sitting on fresh, green, mossy ground, admiring the life and beauty of it. It … Read moreA Mount Pleasant Christmas: Setting the Record Straight
People have asked me about my origins. When I was about 13, I asked my Dad if He believed in God. He said, “Who the Hell you think you’re talking to?” Yep. My Dad was God. He lived here on this Earth for about 72 years right under everyone’s noses. The only thing I really … Read moreMy Dad: A Eulogy
There was a man who tried to kill God. His name was Nietzsche. I met him once. He started out as a brilliant young man. He could have done a lot of things. Unfortunately, he thought Kierkegaard was, well, cuter than he was. Nevermind whether this was true. Nietzsche was, in truth, an attractive young … Read moreOnce Upon A Time…
Hi, fans. I’m back after a long hiatus. I got my lava lamp heated up and ready to go. I am pleased to announce that I’m currently working with two fabulous associates: MTV and the Red Hot Chili Peppers. I know, I know. You may think this is a conflict of interest. These days, one … Read moreI’m Baaaack.
In the world of universities, there’s scholars, administrators, students, administrative assistants. And then there’s me. I’m an oddball. I always have been a little different, tying my shoes the opposite way—from top to bottom instead of bottom to top—when I was a kid and setting a brief trend. When I graduated high school, I knew … Read moreAn Oddball History Of Myself
As you probably know, I wrote a very short collection of essays on Native American issues. I had a Native American I know look over the book. We discussed some ideas in it. They told me that basically it’s a great idea, but Native Americans and injustices toward them aren’t on anyone’s radar. Perhaps that’s … Read more“Native Americans Aren’t On Anyone’s Radar”
There’s an peculiar thing that happens when people talk about being Native. Some Native people, but especially non-Natives, say they are “part Cherokee” or “part Choctaw.” Now this makes sense if you’re talking about your ancestry. If you really do have Native ancestry, that’s great. If you’re not sure or if you don’t really have … Read moreCitizenship: There Is No “Part Indian”
There’s a point at which one knows something so well that they just assert it to be true. I’m going to make an assertion: The United States is currently colonizing tribal nations and this is grossly unjust. I have argued this in the past; for example, in my 2004 undergraduate philosophy thesis. These days, however, … Read moreColonialism And Decolonization
I have a confession to make. I destroyed a book. I was psychotic at the time. But I still destroyed a book. That book was Radical Hope by Jonathan Lear. As everyone who knows me knows, I had my first psychotic break when I was writing my MA thesis. Radical Hope was at the crux … Read moreRadical Hope?
I spent a good deal of time this evening talking to my family about the common phrase these days “It is what it is.” People in my family had differing views about both what the phrase means and whether they like it. I used to dislike the phrase “It is what it is.” If you … Read moreIt Is What It Is: The Real Modern Stoic Philosophy
My government, the United States, is a colonial government. Period. End of story. I was born here and through friendship, love and learning realized I occupy a colonizer space in life. Funny how. I know much of the history of colonialism. And I know that in order to gain liberation, colonized people often protest, have … Read moreI Don’t Want Native Americans To Fight For Their Rights
Author’s Note (6/14/2018):This thesis has cause me a lot of trouble–mostly, I think, at this point, trouble in my own mind. Since writing it I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia. Even though this thesis is now over 10 years old, it lurks in the back of my mind as one of the most subversive things … Read moreJ. LAWSON THESIS (Stetson University, 2004, Citations Omitted): “The More Freely He Breathes: Colonialism In The United States”
Lately, I’ve been mixing personal stories and experiences into my philosophical writing. That’s no accident. I finally feel, when doing this, authentic in my writing and thinking. (Instead of pretending I have thoughts, feelings and insights that come, dislocated, from nowhere.) The personal has always been the philosophical for me. I know, I know. We … Read moreThe Personal Is The Philosophical
I want to share an image I found online: I like this quote. I like the image. Many people have noted that the break down of our sense of truth is a red flag that could lead to fascism in the United States. Believing in truth is one good way to fight fascism. I still … Read moreYou Don’t Have To Be A Platonist To Believe In Truth (And Fight Fascism!)
There’s been talk recently about the idea of guaranteed jobs. The idea is that anyone who wants a job is, well, guaranteed one. This idea has been floated by many on both sides of the political spectrum. It’s even proposed by a philosopher who is running for Congress. On one hand, I think, well, we … Read morePoll: Guaranteed Jobs
Florida has the third highest rate of homelessness in the United States. About 40% of people who experience homelessness have a disability. There are some things available for people who experience housing insecurity, but not a whole lot to help people get on their feet. There’s not many places that will offer a home outright … Read moreHousing Insecurity In Florida: A Proposed Solution
I’m going to share with you some things that have been kept quiet in my family for many years. It starts with my first memory. My first memory is of my dad beating my mom. It’s a sad memory and I’ve rarely told it to many people. I can still see my mom, in desperation, … Read moreTranscending My First Memory
This blog is my personal blog. It’s in no way a professional blog. This is where I try out ideas, post more personal things and try on different hats. If you’d like to see my more professional work, I encourage you to check out my posts at the Florida Student Philosophy Blog. I hope you … Read moreA Note About This Blog
This morning I weighed myself, like I usually do, and noticed I dropped a couple more pounds. I’m not stressing over my weight. It’s a different game this time around. And it’s starting to flow naturally.
I’m vain. I admit it. For the longest time, I wouldn’t wear glasses. However, sometime last year, my contacts scratched my eye. My eye turned out to be OK, but it left an emotional scar. I’m afraid to wear contacts now–even though my doctor said it was fine to do so. So, recently, I got … Read moreWearing Glasses
I don’t have blue suede shoes. But I do have a blue suede jacket! And it has been chilly enough to wear it.
Here’s me and the portrait I am matched to on the app Google Arts and Culture.
I’ve had this song stuck in my head the past few days. I just love it. And I really like this cover.
I think one of the most detrimental things one can do is identify with their career. I find so many people who do identify with their career. When they lose a job, when they retire, they lose their sense of identity. When one thinks in terms of oneself as how one sells one’s labor, one … Read moreIdentity And Your Career
I just read Five Myths About Nuclear Weapons by Ward Wilson. Nuclear weapons have been on the minds of many lately. Several of my friends worry about Trump and his ability to use nuclear weapons and the breakout of a war with North Korea. So I decided to break through some of the myths surrounding … Read moreWill Nuclear Weapons Become Obsolete?
Check out my new post at The New Floridian.
That was my first reaction to the spiritual gift of prophecy. Oh, crap. It wasn’t like I asked for it. It’s just that as I encountered the Bible, things appeared to me. I had visions. I had dreams. I had revelations. But, to make matters worse, I also have a history of living with schizophrenia. … Read moreOh, Crap. I’m a Prophet.
A friend and I are launching a monthly Florida based online magazine in August. It’s called The New Floridian. Get a sneak peek at what’s in store here. To keep updated, check us out every month, like us on Facebook and follow us on Twitter.
Meet Issac! He’s the cutie pie my mom and stepdad adopted in Africa. They are providing funds to support him. And you can help! Donate at my GoFundMe page to help give Issac food, medical care, a loving, supportive home and more!
I am raising money so people in my church, such as my mom, can go to Kenya, Africa on a mission trip. All the money goes to Cross Creek Community Church. If you are interested in donating, please go here.
Check out my new blog entry over at Ghost Parachute.
I lost ten pounds in about a month. Here’s the results.
Like most of my books, my books on meta-ethics are in storage. But was very interested in meta-ethics. In fact, the first iteration of my MA thesis was on meta-ethics. I was thinking about the foundations of morality today. I can’t say I have any answers–for all the searching I’ve done. But my thesis was … Read moreMoral Skepticism and the Foundations of Morality
I have been thinking about emotions lately. Specifically, whether and what they tell us. Emotions have been given a bad rap among some, but I have come to the conclusion that they are tied to the beliefs we have. I have said previously that I don’t experience anger. And I don’t. So I don’t know … Read moreEmotions
Anyone who knows me knows I was sort of obsessed with Kierkegaard as an undergraduate. And, after undergrad, I took a year off to study both Kierkegaard and skepticism. I don’t really do philosophy anymore, but Kierkegaard came to mind today. One of his seminal works is Fear and Trembling. I’m not a Kierkegaard expert, … Read moreKierkegaard
A while ago–maybe two years now–we and our neighbors collaborated on an herb garden at our house. It’s a nice little place to sit and relax. There’s several herbs there and a bench. Our neighbor (and us) thought it would be nice to make it a community space. Here you can see our potted herb … Read moreOur Herb Garden
As someone who studied ethics, I was interested in, of course, good and evil. Most people think of ethics as focusing only on good, but that’s not true. The fact is, evil perplexes me. I tried to study it as much as I could. I don’t think I studied as much as some other people … Read moreOn Evil
The other day, I was with a friend at a coffee shop. I told her, “I’m a spinster.” She said, “That’s not a feminist word.” I said flatly, “I’m reclaiming it.” The fact is, I have never been married and I don’t know if it will happen for me. A couple of people recently proposed … Read moreReclaiming ‘Spinster’
A while back, I read Brian Wilson’s new memoir, I Am Brian Wilson. I also watched the newest film based on his life, Love and Mercy. The film could have been better, I thought. It’s difficult to depict mental illness in film. It’s very hard to show what struggling with mental illness is like. But … Read moreLove and Mercy
The other day, I was with a friend who said I inspired him/her to go to counseling. This person seems well-adjusted and doesn’t have any mental illness that we know of. But it’s my opinion that everyone should get counseling just as everyone should go to the doctor. Mental health is often treated differently than … Read moreCounseling is for Everyone
I stopped wearing makeup about a year ago now. It’s been interesting. Before, I would never leave the house without being completely made up. Now, I leave the house however I feel like. This has been such a relief. I think when I wore makeup, I had lower self-esteem. I may look less pretty than … Read moreA Year Without Makeup
I’ve always been a quiet person. Sometimes, I’ve been chastised for this from people seeking more “personality.” But I’m actually pretty comfortable with myself. Very comfortable, actually. I’m a content person most of the time and I don’t have wild emotions. I don’t think I’ve ever experienced anger. Truly. I don’t know what it’s like … Read more“Still Waters Run Deep”
Phew. I went and had coffee with my friend. It took a lot out of me. I’m an introvert, for one thing. For another, I’m ill.* I’m used to spending time with just a few people and other introverts. But it was nice. We already made plans to do a lot of things together. Fortunately, … Read moreCoffee Redux
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I admit it. I’ve become somewhat of a hermit. This past year was rough for me in several ways and I stayed in a lot. This year, I’ve decided one of my goals is to get out more. I’ve made several new friends and I want to do things with them. But it’s difficult on … Read moreSocialization on a Budget
I had a good New Year’s Eve. But on New Year’s Day, it’s time to spend time with my family. We have a tradition. Maybe you do, too. We always eat black-eyed peas on New Year’s Day for good luck. Here’s hoping 2017 is full of great things for us all.
I hope you and yours have a safe and happy New Year.
This morning, I went and got my final shot of Abilify for the year. They always switch between arms. First, the left arm. Then, the right. Today, it was the right arm. I used to not like getting shots, but I have grown accustomed to it with Abilify. And, anyway, like I told my nurse … Read moreLast Shot of Abilify for the Year
To celebrate one year of being out of the hospital–and the new year–I got myself a new dress. It may be hard to tell the texture and shine on this dress in the video, but it’s really a pretty dress.